Happy are you poor, by Thomas Dubay
Book Club discussion on May 13
What struck me most was
the consistent theme that a person in love can think of nothing else; the world
fades away and nothing matters. There is great truth in that sentiment! Each
day I find myself falling more and more deeply in love with God, with Jesus,
with my faith, our faith. And in that love, I find I can more
easily accept even that which I do not understand.
The next thing that made
me think hard about where I am is giving from my need, rather than just from my
excess. The author was right in pointing out that giving is easy when it's what
I can afford, or am willing to part with. Since coming across this point, I've
been more inclined to simply give. And I've been prepared to hand things over,
just for the asking. I've also offered food and shelter to strangers. Knowing
that it's outside my comfort a bit (personally and monetarily) has been far
outweighed by the knowledge that it's the right thing to do. God will provide,
in whatever way He sees the need.
That brings me to
another point I've been pondering. What I perceive to be my needs are not
necessarily what I truly need. My faith has deepened with the idea that there
is so very little that I need, as opposed to what I have to give. I've taken a
huge leap of faith (2 actually) and the fruits are already ripening. Opening my
heart to trust in the gifts I've been given, and to use and act upon them came
as much from learning about being poor in spirit as from any other book we've
read.
I also saw many
parallels with St. Therese, Thomas Merton, Bonhoeffer, St. Paul, and even
Andrew Comiskey's works. Each opening of the heart leading to another. Living
faith out loud, rather than quietly and alone. Giving from an emotional and
spiritual standpoint, as much as from a monetary (physical) one. I feel more
prepared to live as an example to our children, too, although I know there are
still some things I am not yet ready to give up or let go of. I'm willing to
admit and "own" them, though, and that is progress toward eventually
giving all.
In the giving, I've also
started to ask. There are things that money cannot buy, but that we shouldn't
do without--a shoulder to lean on, a heart to connect with, advice. These are
things I've always had a hard time asking for in my moments of need, though I give
them freely. I love that the concepts in this book, and our last, have given me
permission to need those things, and also to say so.
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